Congrats to our good friends, Josh and Bonny, who are expecting their first baby at the end of April/first of May.  That kiddo will be so blessed to have such great parents!  So yay!

I broke my tooth yesterday morning.  On a breakfast burrito of all things.  The tooth was weakend during chemo and I noticed a large hole in it, so this was just a matter of time.  What sucks is that I have had at least two appointments a week since I got out of the hospital a little over a month ago, so I didn’t want to take the time to make an appointment.  Well, I guess now I kinda have to.  So Thursday.  Sigh.  I hate going to the dentist.  Yes, I worked for one, that makes it worse.  I know exactly what they’re doing.

A great conversation between me and Gracie last night:

“mommy, John McCain is better than Barack Obama”

“Oh really?  Where did you hear that?  Have you been talking to Grandpa?”

“No, they said it on the TV” 

“who is “they”?”

“John McCain.  He said he was better than Obama.” 

So cute and funny.  I love that kid!

My hair is starting to get sooo long!  It’s to my shoulders now and curly all over.  I have fun with headbands and clippies.  It’s wild, I love it!

Dr Bajaj said today that I don’t have to come back for another check up for three weeks!  Awesome!

And Dr Tfayli said that since I’m two years out from my cancer diagnosis, and the CT scans have shown “nothing significant” that I don’t have to do them anymore!  Woooooo! 

We’re participating in the Susan G Komen Race for the Cure again this year.  And when I say “we” I mean Chris and I, with the girls, and my parents and sister Brooke, maybe Matthew if he wants to. I’m starting my fundraising campain soon, so if you have some extra change laying around, send it my way!  Last year, 44 women were diagnosed with breast cancer as a result of mammograms they wouldn’t have otherwise received–but thanks to the Susan G Komen foundation and Race for the Cure, there are 44 women who like me, are getting a second chance at life.  And that’s JUST from the grant to OU Medical Center!  Other hospitals recieved grants and who knows how many lives it has saved??? It’s a VERY worthy cause! 

When Trinity sees Barack Obama on the TV she yells “Ohmama! Ohmama!” Hilarious! 

I think that’s it for now.  I’m busy ebaying all the girls’ clothes from last season, and trying to keep the house in some kind of order.  For the record, it’s not working.

Can I just say how frustrating my forgetfulness is?  It’s so hard to remember *any*thing.  Today Chris expressed his frustration in not being able to have a normal conversation with me, and I agree.  I will be told something and two hours later be caught off guard.  Gracie will ask me for juice when I’m doing laundry and I’ll finish laundry and then forget what she needed.  I have to set my alarm to remember to do things.  I think it’s mainly short term memory stuff because I’m starting to remember more and more of my childhood memories.  But the day to day stuff that makes me a good wife, friend and mother is actually what I need now, more than ever.  It’s not that I’m not listening, I promise.  My brain is just still really sick.  I hated chemo when I was going through it, but I hate it now even more.

I’m getting around a little bit and have been taking daily walks down the street.  Chris took me home over the weekend so we could spend some time together.  I’m sure my parents welcomed the break as well.  Gracie and Trinity spent the weekend in between the grandparents’ houses.  Chris made me a special dinner of Spring salad, peaches, Praline Chicken, breadsticks, and cream puffs for dessert.  We watched Vantage Point and went to bed.  The next day we took a walk, spent time just being together, and I watched him do dishes and laundry.  I can’t wait to be home so I can help but honestly it was nice to not have to worry about it. 

This whole experience is definitely taking its toll on Gracie.  She’s so ready for all this to be over.  We have limited visits, and she always cries when she has to leave me.  She gave me a photo of her and Trinity “so you won’t forget us”  How sad is that??  She doesn’t understand.  We’re closer than we think we are. 

I go see Dr Bajaj again tomorrow.  Last time she took out my abdomen stitches so I expect this time she’ll take out the stitches across my chest.  I hope.  Last night as we were changing the dressings, we noticed there was definitely a lot of healing that had been happening.  And I’m able to sit and stand on my own now.  I’m walking as much as I can to keep my muscles active.  It’s hard but I’m getting there. 

I read a novel that some friends had brought by.  I was going to start on the Twilight series but I haven’t gotten the books yet.  Chris bought me The Audacity of Hope because I have been wanting to read it forever, and while I feel that I am already researched on my choice for president, I wanted to read Barack Obama’s biography so that I can understand him more.  I have always liked Obama, even when he was a long shot.   So I’ll be absorbed in that book for a few days. 

Nothing else really to say.