Chris is working 12 hour days until January. He goes to work early in the morning when I take Gracie to school, and usually comes home after the girls have gone to bed. I hate, hate, hate cooking dinner for Trinity to throw her portion on the floor, Gracie to eat three bites and claim she’s full, and Chris to say he hates leftovers. It seems like I spend an hour in the kitchen with the girls crying and whining for me to hold them or play with them, or ask 50 times “is it ready yet?” and then we sit at the table for 10 minutes with the above mentioned scenario. Then I get to do the dishes. Then I get to clean the floor. Then it’s bathtime. Then I have to clean the bathroom after they soak it. Ugh. It’s never ending. I’m soooo tired.
Tonight is Gracie’s cheerleading so at least we’ll have something to do. But mostly at night, I’m lonely. My friends have their husbands home in the evenings. If I could get away I would, but I still have the girls with me so I don’t dare venture out. There’s just no break. And if I put them to bed 30 minutes early, I just have to deal with them 30 minutes earlier in the morning. Pray for me ya’ll. I’m exhausted.
In other news, Trinity has been talking a ton, and pretty much repeats everything that Gracie says. And Gracie can write anything now. She has been copying letters and making words–she is so smart! I am constantly impressed with her ability to remember every little thing she’s learned. Both girls are so bright. I really am a very lucky mommy, even if I can’t keep my eyes opened. =)
Anonymous says:
Hi, I read your blog as an encouragement as I found it as I was also going through b.c. treatment. I am a bit ahead of you in the process as I finished my radiation in Feb. I am still tired too for the ordeal. People told me it could take a couple of years to feel energetic again and have the ability to do everything you did before. Try not to be so down on yourself. You have been through a lot!
November 27th, 2007 at 5:17 pm
Anonymous says:
I’m so sorry. I hate having alone days too. When my husband isn’t home for dinner I rarely cook at all beyond pancakes and grilled sandwiches. He has lots of days where he comes home to change clothes and then is gone again. If we were closer you could come over here - the distraction would be welcome!
November 28th, 2007 at 9:52 am
Anonymous says:
Girl, that sounds awful. As if you need me to tell you that your days are rough. You know that. But I will tell you that I’m sorry, and I wish you were closer! You could totally come hang out with me and the girls! A break would be nice…I’m sorry it doesn’t look like you’ll get one anytime soon. I know that his schedule has to be hard on the girls, too. They need their daddy.
But at least Daddy has a job, right? At least there is a positive in it. Even if the positive is the cause of the negative…
November 28th, 2007 at 10:51 am
Anonymous says:
Ugh. I remember those days. It was awful. But thankfully, it’s temporary right? Is he at least getting paid overtime? I hope so!
Maybe a friend can come over one night and watch the girls so you can go to a movie or starbucks alone or something? I totally would if it weren’t for the dang drive!
November 28th, 2007 at 11:17 am
Anonymous says:
That’s me! Spicing things up a bit!
Speaking of spice….my entire house smells like cinnamon b/c of the cinnamon dough ornaments we made today. mmmmmm…..smells like the holidays!
November 28th, 2007 at 11:14 pm
Anonymous says:
RYC: Thanks. I really need it. The more we talk, the more Rocky seems to think this is the right step and the harder it is for me to wrap my mind around. *sigh*
I had a big bawl fest tonight before he got home. When does this end? Will we EVER get to be people who just ARE instead of people who ARE IN TRANSITION?
I’m so tired. so so so so so tired.
November 28th, 2007 at 11:49 pm
Anonymous says:
Sorry you are so lonely and frustrated. These days will pass and better days will come. Keep smiling and thanks for sharing the joys of your precious jewels with us, you are doing a great job and why the girls are so smart.
November 29th, 2007 at 12:41 am