I left Trinity here last night with Chris instead of taking her to the church nursery with me–she was napping and I didn’t want to wake her. She was in bed when I got home. I woke up at 3:45ish and heard her wimpering. She was standing in her crib, still in her clothes from yesterday, hair still up in a hairband (ouch!) and soaking wet head to toe, in pee. Did he not change her diaper before bed? I’m not sure. So a 4 AM bath, load of laundry and sheet change and she’s back asleep while I’m wide awake. Of course, during this whole process he is asleep and dead to the world. He doesn’t wake up when she cries or when Gracie calls out in the night. Can I honestly feel good about leaving them next week if he can’t/won’t care for the girls like I need him to? Most of you know I adore my husband and love him dearly, but I am the primary caretaker of our girls. He doesn’t change diapers. I’m going to be gone for 4 days! Pray for us!! I’m starting to rethink this trip–although I desperately need it!
It’s almost 6. I think I’m going to go dig out my running shoes and go for a jog by myself. I’ve been wanting to start running and since I’m awake…
Anonymous says:
I understand you on this one COMPLETELY! This past year was soooo hard for me b/c Scott would sleep through E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G!!!! But I think it’s a male thing. Honestly. When I would get frustrated with Scott and tell him that I’m “off duty” and it’s his turn– he would do better and not go into such a deep sleep. But then he would complain about being tired. DUH– I’m tired like 24/7!
I’m like you–I cannot just go back to sleep at the drop of a pin. Once I’m up, it takes me at least 2 hours to fall back asleep. My doctor wanted to give me Ambien (which is a sleeping pill–but you HAVE to dedicate 8 hours to sleep. No wakings. Serious side effects if woken up: hallucinations, extreme dizziness, etc…)… so I decided not to take it b/c of course, I couldn’t see Scott being there for Kairi’s every need. Checking to see if she’s covered. Making sure she’s not wet.
You need this trip for YOU– I think your hubby will follow through. I’m sure he’s gonna be exhausted since he’s going to have to do it all– but I think he’ll do okay. And then I’m SURE he will appreciate all you do so much more b/c he tried to fill your shoes. Being a Mommy is tough work– I think when it comes to Kairi, I seriously have 95% of the responsibility/work–which is fine… I accept that.
So did you go for a run?
June 25th, 2007 at 10:24 am
Anonymous says:
I would be so mad!!! how frustrating!
June 25th, 2007 at 4:56 pm
Anonymous says:
I understand totally… I hope it all works out! I have no advice except a “stern” talking to… but then you feel like you have THREE kids… Ugh. I do know what you’re talking about…
June 27th, 2007 at 7:13 pm