Chris is optimizing the computer (Oh how I love my super hot technogeek husband!) and everything except email and internet are temporarily unavailable. But I got some cute Easter pics, so I’ll get them up ASAP!
I’m sad today. In talking with the nurses from my plastic surgeon’s office, I realized that I had misunderstood exactly when I can have reconstruction. I had planned on doing it late this summer, but that was before the treatment plan included radiation. So now I have to wait until at least December, but since I’m in a wedding in February, I won’t be completely recovered by then. So I’m going to have to wait until late February/early March! I’m dissapointed to say the least. I’ve only cried a handful of times about my cancer, because I’m not really a victim mentality type person and I don’t feel sorry for myself. However yesterday I just kind of lost it. I cried because I’m sick of looking weird and not having boobs, I’m sick of not being able to exercise and feeling like a lump everyday, and most of all I just want to be back to normal. This cancer has taken way too much of my life already, and now it will be another year. And on top of all that, they’re not sure they’ll be able to do the TRAM flap surgery on me, (like I really wanted!) they may just do fake boobs. Having to do radiation has messed up everything. How disappointing!
Thursday is my CAT scan to make sure everything’s gone. Oh how I pray that we got all the cancer!
Sorry to leave you on that note, but I’ve got kiddos to play with and a house to clean. Peace!
Kari
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