So my new chemo treatment is different medicine, this one is called Taxol. I’m supposed to call the infusion nurses if my fingers and toes go numb. And this one, they said, would make me more tired and more achy in my joints and muscles. Oh the joys of side effects! But whatever, I’m alive. One thing I wasn’t expecting is that it took all day to get this treatment. Chris took off work to stay with me, and we were there from 9am to 3 pm. That is a loooong day of sitting and getting “infused.” I can’t imagine how boring it was for Chris. At least one of my pre-meds was Benadryl, so I slept almost the whole time. We did have the laptop so we watched 2 episodes of 24 that Chris downloaded but I fell asleep for the next one.
Last night we took the girls out for heart-shaped pepperoni pizza for Valentine’s Day. There’s a place in Edmond called Pepperoni Station that makes it special for Valentine’s and they have live music. It’s very family oriented and even has a little playroom for the kiddos. Gracie made lots of friends in the play area and kept calling them all “honey” and “sweetie.” I think that’s more fun than getting all dressed up and going out because it seems like many couples have to have a “romantic” evening to make it special. Well, when we were youth pastors (read: very poor) we never had any money to be frivolously romantic so we got really good at doing the little things (and being very creative) on a daily basis that made our marriage wonderful. Now it’s just become routine to have romantic evenings without having to dedicate a special holiday to make up for all year of not doing anything LOL So we kind of have this tradition (we took Gracie last year) of doing the heart pizza thing and it works for us. Hopefully this will communicate to the girls as they grow that Valentine’s Day isn’t just for lovers, it’s for love. But it shouldn’t be the only day you show love. I am so grateful for them and for Chris. I love my family more than I ever thought I could love anyone, ever. I’m living my dream of being the wife and mommy!
Here, I realized my post was boring without some pictures:
The heart shaped pizza. WHY, WHY WHY does Gracie have to make that silly no-upper-lip grin? LOL It’s so goofy!
The girls in the playroom at Pepperoni Station. Notice Gracie’s leg warmers and flip flops? It was SNOWING and she refused to wear anything but flip flops. The leg warmers? Well, she found they don’t really do much to warm her toes…live and learn I suppose.
That’s why it’s so important for me to fight and stay alive. That motivated me to go to chemo today. I didn’t feel too optimistic today, I was really dreading it. But before I went in, I prayed for strength and I know that God got me through. I just have to get through these next few days of yuck and then I’ll be happy that I’m fighting as hard as I am. Thank you all for all your prayers, cards, emails and ecards, and donations to the cancer fund. I know that you all want me alive too and that makes me fight even harder. I can’t thank God enough for my friends–internet friends, people from Northview, people I’ve known since I was a little kid, others I went to school with, people from my past, and my family. God will bless you for blessing me! Love you!
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